Thursday, December 06, 2012
quite like my life now. not working anymore, concentrating on my studies. thought life will be quite boring staying at home everyday. but actually.. iz nice. ^^ enjoying the peaceful moment of everyday life. ha-la'ing' with my family and irritating my bros. lol. try my best to make it a point to study a chap of a mod everyday, thou sometimes will end up not studying (feel guilty) but so far so gd la. =)
thot it would be so hard for me to leave my workplace, will miss the people, and all. but now... it seems tat it doesn't matter at all. not thinking of anything else except wat to study. spent some night in coffeeshop helping to bao nasi lemak. thou tiring but ok la. not as bad, at least i'm not going there to help out every night. really can understand how tough it is for my parents to work like tis everyday. 又再一次明白,要赚多点钱, 就要辛苦多一点... thou many ppl see how someone is able to earn alot, but they dun see how hard the person worked to earn tat amt. don't be jealous ba. oh and this oso shows tat i nv stay home and do nth ok~ i did went to help out a lil. an apron is coming along for me to sew too. lol. my aunt is asking if i know how to sew an apron. i told her i can try and now she's gonna buy a cloth tat she like for me to sew. haha
it really feels so nice. i won't say iz nice to be studying at home and not working. more to feeling nice not interacting much with people ba. not that i dun like interacting with people. but somehow... it kinda giv some peace to my innerself? kinda find that my life previous is a mess. the life feel kinda unwanted that i dun wana go back anymore. the life now... seems clearer. no mess, pure. haha! limited vocab, tat's how i can describe.
actually kinda worried that i'm taking 7 mods tis sem. sometimes when i think, it feels kinda impossible. but on second thots, if we can manage 7 subjects in secondary sch, y can't we handle 7 modules now? should be the same rite? and tats what i've been telling myself. i can do it!! if i can pass my subjects during sec sch (thou not tat well), then given now i hav so much time and the willingness to study, i should be can do it. 加油!!
sometimes i'm thinking, maybe i should hav quit my job earlier. then maybe i wouldn't hav spent this extra one year studying now and scrapping to pass. if i had been a full time student, i prolly would hav graduated. but again, after thinking back on my past years working, i dun really regret too. an experience too ba. sometimes some things are just fated. iz prolly juz fated for me to leave. i sometimes think too that, if my boss had let me go on no pay leave, prolly i won't needa leave too. haha. fated ba. iz juz time for me to leave. and i'm glad about it.
oh! and i feel very accomplished today! i actually manage to study and kinda understood what i totally dun understand previously. and this meant tat i gained smth. very happy. =DDD i tried sooo hard trying to understand it while studying for the exam and totally cmi. and now, if the qns dun giv me some weird things. i think i'm able to do it confidently ba. haha! ok. i haven really truly deeply understood but ok la. gd enough. i'm gonna conquer tat chap today!
ok. tat's it for this. juz... thot of blogging since the laptop is staring at me. haha! am 'cleaning' my laptop and doing some defrag. so yeah. dun waste the electricity. do something useful since i've been wanting to blog. (there's no one i can talk bout these random stuff to isnt it. it'll be too random. haha!) so yeah
~peace~
