Thursday, March 29, 2012
iz been long~rem someone hav been complaining tat my blog remains at 20 yrs old
haha!
well. isn't it a gd thing?
i dun wana remind myself tat i'm old anyway
time past like zooom!
scary~
anyway
was as usual studying
then started drifting away
first went to look up on my jam's movie
tat dear movie which i've been waiting for it to be shown in sg but tsk forget it
doubt they will show
in the end i bought the dvd online
haha!
expecting it to arrive in few wks time
hopefully it do arrive
then later started looking at ppl's blog
not many ppl anyway
juz tat 2
iz been soooo long since i did tis kinda thing le
been so busy with life that i haven got much time to pause and rest for tis kinda thing
or rather...
put it tis way
the moment i started drifting away
i'll feel guilty
haha!
esp when the many many thots of thinking i wana blog
then the later thot of blogging needs time and i got no time i'll become damn sian le
haish
i'm soooo worried on my studies
kinda broke down 2 days ago
started crying (like once again) in lab on how stress i am and how i'm unable to finish studying
and now, end up got ppl keep bugging me and ranting me and nagging me to study
T-T
but at the same time
i oso realise sometimes how selfish i am regarding some matters
i really dun think in other ppl's shoe
how idiot of me.
haiz
anyway
many things happen these days
so many times i wana blog but... (u know the reason)
feels tat there is a change in my thinking ba
some things i dun really wana care anymore
and some things i've been hoping for a change
recently saw tis somewhere
saying bout how listening to a particular song reminds u of someone
does it happen to u?
coz it does happen to me
everytime i hear tat song it reminds me of tat person
mostly the happy times
bad times..
i've forgotten
wonder if tat person does too
i can't even rem what triggered the silience/argument
but only rem iz loads of wat i will say, misunderstandings, that causes it
details, i can't rem
iz really one of my regrets ba
是你决定我的伤心
i wonder if tis reminds u of me too.
=)
these days been busy studying
haven really got a chance to meet up with ppl
feeling tat i've distant away from them
esp sam
b4 sch starts and some time after sch juz started i've been meeting her for like almost every wk?
ever since things got more stressful
i now basically dun contact her anymore
when my exam end i'm sooooo going to call her and ask her out!
anyway exam is at expo
might be able to find her in cgh
haha!
not only her
some others here and there too
min juz msg me few days ago (or was it ytd) tat carrot bought choco from hk
and tat reminds me tat i have seen him for quite a long time too
haha!
i almost could hav forgotten bout him
=P
and i've planned wat i wana do after my exams le
and one of them is...
kbox!!!
heee
the remaining includes painting my house outside de walls
set up my sewing machine
and...
off handedly tat's all i can rem
haha!
just smth random
i'm not a person who express myself well
so dun expect those kinda !!! expression from me
i duno how to console ppl, neither do i know how to show my concern
so if u are there crying and i'm not there asking u wat happen etc de
it doesn't mean i dun care
iz juz tt i duno wat to do
i dun wana make things worst by going near coz i'm afraid wat i say will worsen things
if u tell me smth is pitiful,
dun expect me to go 'oh, so poor thing' etc
but it oso doesn't mean i feel nth
to put it simply,
hav u seen me doing all these things?
prolly yes but very seldom i guess
i rem looooong looong time ago
there's someone who kinda 'tested' me to giv tat kinda expression
and sadly i failed
sounded very 'i dun care' kinda way
argued and in the end, i guess tat person gave up
or prolly,
tat person began to understand wat kinda person i am
no matter wat
tat's juz me
sometimes iz strange tat u can think of so many things u wana say
but when u are here now typing away
nth comes in
and it ends up like yet another crappy post
trying to squeeze out watever crap u can think of at that moment
haish
oh well
guess i'll end tis crap here
~i dun dare to think of wat will happen next, i only dare to think of wat to study next~
