Thursday, August 25, 2011
OMG OMG OMG!!!
i actually passed my exams!!!
OH MY GOD!!!
haha.
i know tis excitement came abit late since i checked it ytd
but still,
i'm sooooo happy!!!
haha!
thou i didn't pass all my mods la
but hey,
3 out of 4
totally way way waayyyy out of wat i expected can
when checking my results i'm soooo expecting all fail la
i seriously won't be surprise if i got like 2 of the mod with zero marks
but omg~
i actually pass 3!!!!
i'm sooo happy la.
happy until i cried
haha!
scare some of my colleagues le
they thot wat happen
and yes.
i know me crying isn't anything surprising anymore since tat's wat i do often
haha!
but iz tears of joy~!!!
=DDDD
but then...
thou i pass, but results aren't gd la.
considering tat i'm taking a degree with hons
but my marks...
they only qualify for a pass
haha!
not even a third class hons
sian
needa really buck up work hard and hold on to it!!!
pray tat i do grad in 2 yrs time k?
with a 2nd class hons?
haha!
i know one muz be ambitious
aim high
then will work harder
but....
1st class hons..
like abit hard huh~~
thou not impossible la.
since i THINK i heard tat as long as i got 4 or 5 mods with first class hons results
i'm confirm a 1st class hons student le
haha!
and...
in a way it isn't very hard to get 1st class la
if iz maths?
haha
think 70 marks can qualify for a 1st class le?
seems easy rite?
well...
easier said than done~
even the passing mark of 34 i'm struggling le
wat's more smth tat's more than 2 times tat score.
haha!
oh!
did i mention?
i checked my results a total of 4 times ytd to make sure tat i really passed 3 mods
haha!
i so scared later they will tell me smth went wrong somehow and wat i see isn't really wat i got la
haiz
tis shows how much i'm unable to believe tat i actually can pass the mods
lol
and one of the mod tat i was even expecting a 0 marks became my best scored mod
haha!
not high but the best of the 3 la.
oh man.
really
ytd was the best day in my life man
haha!
but...
in a way oso got a lil disappointment ba
=)))
not bout my results thou
juz find tat some things really can't force one
haha!
eh eh
dun get it wrong.
not talking bout those relationship thingy here
juz feel tat those close friends tat u will be with
there are really some chemistry tat can make u click with each other
and tat's y u became friends
some ppl
not matter how much u attempted
it juz doesn't feel rite
dun click
prolly coz iz done too awkwardly?
too forceful?
haha!
i duno
prolly smth went wrong somewhere
prolly the person isn't even interested to befriend u
prolly the person is juz pure quiet
prolly the person, like me, duno how to hold a convo
prolly iz juz the lack of chemistry
haha!
sometimes i'll think
did i make the wrong move in the first place to even start talking to the person?
coz prolly the person isn't even interested to hav u in their life
but u force urself in
and now they hav to suffer coz of u
suffer like say....
prolly they dun really wana talk to u but no choice coz u made the move of talking to them
in the end they are forced to talk to u
smth like tat one
do u think the person will think like tis?
or prolly...
they can't be even bothered to think of tis kinda small matter even for tat split sec coz iz simply a waste of time?
haha
wat do u think?
if someone juz enter ur life forcefully, how will u feel?
friends
how come they seem so hard to make now
where did all my friends come from?
how did i make them?
since when did i start rejecting ppl coming into my life
or is there even someone who attempted to come into my life?
since when did i stop attempting to break into ppl's life?
or was it always ppl breaking into my life?
been roaming around fb these days
haven been visiting for a super long time
looked at photos of friends
past and present
they all seem happily living their life
wat bout me?
am i happy?
i suppose i am ba
haha!
i duno
i'm a bit worried thou
ppl seems to be leaving my life
but new one nv come
my close friends hav their other closer friends
mostly ppl whom they see much more often than me
while i seem to hav only them
those whom i see almost each and everyday,
they aren't even considered close
y?
izit coz i've locked up my heart?
refusing ppl to enter and at the same time, did not attempt to enter theirs?
haha
how come i suddenly feel so lousy
even my cousins
they all seemed close
but y am i not in the pic?
it feels so hard to even get close to them now when they're suppose to be closest to me
they're my relatives
haiz
guess there's really some gain and loss ba
i gain some i lose some
but now.
i only feel tat i'm losing
haha!
oh well
at least i still hav u all.
^^
didn't they all say?
having few close gd friends is better than having loads of.... friends?
haha!
lets all jia you ba!!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDD
~i entered without permission. are you ok with it?~
