was looking at syf vid
ppl are fast
ytd competition
today jiu upload liao
tat's the least i could get ba
since i can't get to go
T-T
was so hoping i can go down to watch too
feel the atmosphere
haha!
deyi won again.
^^
2012
i wana go
dun care.
orange reserve 1 seat for me. by hook or by crook
lol
i die oso will piao there to watch one
hahaha!

anyway
was watching the vid
sudden thots...
it seems tat ppl are all improving
the sch
the band
ppl around me (all getting prettier le ar~~)
things around me
everything
everyone, everything is improving
wat bout me
am i?
hav i improved?
if i did
where?
if i didn't
how come?
i wana be better
in all aspect
should start expanding my pea brain
times that i visit online
or even switching on my com is getting lesser
almost can live my life without it now
amazing
amzing on how i almost couldn't survive without it last time
till now
not having it isn't a very big prob even
haha!
but even if i dun go online
time still doesn't feel enough
juz at times feeling juz rite
izit coz of sch?
or izit unknowingly i'm doing smth extra tat i'm not doing in the past
wonder how my life is turning into
becoming more and more worried for my future
is my choice of taking up tis degree right?
right now
juz the foundation units i'm already banging wall le
wat's going to happen for my 2nd and 3rd yr
O_O
work
one more ppl going study le
feeling tat my stay there is useless
shouldn't hinder ppl's progress
making things difficult for all
thots of leaving came back to me
again
should i?
actually
there's nth much to cling onto now
going to work without much friends
feeling so by myself
colleagues are still colleagues
how much more can u make better friends with them?
once bitten twice shy i guess
study wise
haiz
one gone
now another oso not studying oso le
left me and one more
but...
i guess not long later i'll be left alone
so much for making friends huh
after few yrs
i'm still back with like almost zero increment in amt
tat's quite a sad thing to say
haiz

went out on fri
wit bie and sam
plus a guy 4 yrs younger
feels so weird
like going out wit my bro (and i rather go out wit my bro dan him actually)
dun really like the fact tat...
his actions on sam seems abit too caring
some actions of his seems abit too obvious
dislike
shoo~ fly
go away
impression of him
seriously
not very gd
ya he can talk
attempted to make friends,
hold convo
so?
ok.
prolly not his fault
iz mine
based too much on the feel i got from tis person
and obviously
he failed
prolly iz his age tat i'm mindful
prolly iz juz him
nvm
forget it
juz hope tat i won't see tis guy a 2nd time



(i surrender....)