finally got a day to slack at home
haha!
happy~
was home whole day watching shows
=P
how i wish mon will nv come
but it still came
haiz
stresssss~~~
no more motivation for work le
T-T
the laughters tt i once hear so frequently
gone~
wonder when will i hear them again
now everyday going to work is juz sian
my motivations
they kinda ended every since tat incident happen
don't understand y would things end up like tis
caught in between
felt worst
nth seems to help
yyyy?????
even crying doesn't help at all (well, i'm a terrible crybaby as always)
i didn't do tat coz í'm angry
neither izit coz i've got no company for dinner (tat so sounds like a kid =P)
i'm juz...
disappointed
disheartened
to be simple,
SAD
don't understand how come things will go tis way
blaming myself so much for not being able to do anything
wonder when will things go back to wat it was
is a deadline of 4mths too long?
or izit too short?
or will things be better after tis wk?
prolly being inside facing those shit is better dan out
at least i'm by myself
hav bout 3/4 of the time to myself
thinking only bout how smelly those shit will be and not on other things
everyday pass by wit me thinking on when will things be better
but they seem to stay tis way everyday
prolly one day i'll juz get use to it instead of things getting better
or...
u nv know i'll juz end up in IMH
ya~
prolly
since i've got such low lvl of stress handling
iz so much easier if things were to happen on myself instead
at least i can do something
but now i can't
or at least i duno how to
lousy me
hai~
u nv know i'll nv ""live"" to see those laughters again ba
T-T
oh ya.
so sry to those whom i've bothered so much on
xin ku ni men le
i know i'm irritating
but still,
thx for it
^^

boooohooooo~~
my face is infested by PIMPLES!!!
T-T
getting worst and worst!!
needa watch my diet le
no more tidbits!!!
but they're everywhere
ever existing
and the amt seems to be increasing
sobzz
i wana eat!
haiz
for the sake of my already-so-terrible face
muz ren~!!!!
hai~
prolly those unseen stress is contributing to the pimples too
should try to go into a state of mindless mind (=.=)
haha!
think bout nth
BLANK
and more fruits!
yeah~
jia you!!
if u see me eating any sinful things
pls STOP me!!!
esp those under the tidbits category
choco & fried category oso needa stop me too
(ya. dan i'll prolly giv u reasons on y i should eat. so! u muz outtalk me! yeah~ =P)



(no more sweets tis wk. T-T)