hav been spending the past 2 nights in SGH
(dun worry, I’m not the one who landed there)
super tired
the most i sleep each time i close my eyes is only bout 45min?
and i reckon there's only 2 of tis 45min
others is few min sleep and awake
haiz..
will be spending my night there for the rest of the 2 nights
which means tonight will be back
quite fated wit this place ar~
or rather outram la
hav been going there quite often nowadays

she has been uttering random things these days
bet she didn't catch a nice sleep too
seeing those needles poke thru her
heartache
T-T
how i wish they were on me
praying hard tat she dun need to suffer so much
rather all those were on me ba..
so old le..
haiz
actually she's quite cute la..
behaving like a child
haha!
uttering random things
like a child too
and she'll even suddenly wake up in the middle of the night
requesting to go home,
go somewhere walk walk,
thinking tat she's at home
haha!
yes i know iz...
not very normal..
but i'll rather think tat she cute ba..
coz..
isn't tat a better side of thinking of things?
^-^

bout 2 or 3 days ago
couzie mentioned bout something
1 yr is coming up
so......
(u decipher urself)

when sending me to SGH last night
papa was talking bout some thots of his
saying tat he think iz not really gd to conclude tat someone only hav a certain time period to live
coz like tis,
the person will keep thinking and thinking
waiting for death to come..
but me..
i think otherwise..
i'd rather i'm told how much time is left for me
so that i can do watever i wan
somemore..
whether u know it or not..
we are all waiting for death
no ma?
in some way ba~
think the diff in this thot is coz
i'm someone wishing for death ba
haha!
and he's someone looking forward to a nice life ahead kind
thinking of the bright bright going to come future
lol
(so sorry if i'm scaring any of u)
gomenasai!!! (am i spelling/using correctly? =P)

ok..
going talk bout my long long story of wat happened tis few days ba..
starting from fri
heeee

FRI:
had UT
dun mention
it seems easy
but...
i scared i ans wrongly
>.<
after UT went meet my couzie to chinatown
buy gui ling gao
hehe
was looking for those pure ones
dan manage to ask tis uncle who knows where got
he say wat..
"da hua guang chang" which is opp the rd of his shop
so ok lo
we cross the rd
nv see any da hua guang chang..
only see the green big people park complex
ask around there
none of them knw where is tat place
in the end went to ask if they know where to find pure gui ling gao
finally manage to find it
in "the majestic"
haha!
buy finish jiu go eat dinner le
couzie was mentioning she has been seeing loads of foreigner
esp korean
after dinner was planning to go home le
dan while waiting for mrt aunt called couzie
telling her tat granny is in hospi
both of us got a shock la!!
immediately rush to hospi
had a hard time looking for the A&E
and tat stupid hospi
not enough bed lo
in the end wait until the next day dan got bed/ward for her
somemore i dun even get to see her la
T-T

SAT:
actual plan was to go aunt house for steamboat de
but she actually landed in hospi
almost got cancelled
but she still call us to continue on the program
haiz
so yupz
woke up early in the morning to peel the egg shell of 100 quail eggs
thot will take a very long time
who knows finish within 5min
zzzz
so after tat go prepare meet couzie le
reach aunt's house, wanted to go gym
BUT
kns
the place gym is only for resident (iz in a condo fyi)
so sad la..
but the gym isn't tat big la~
so got back to the house and change for a swim
hehe~
looooong time no swim le
and i realise
i can't swim much
T-T
i think i can almost drown there la
hai~
but still had fun la.
consequences: got BLACKER
omg..
iz BLACKER ok..
not DARKER as in brownish dark
iz BLACK
oh man..
super sad lo
it took me 3yrs to be ABIT fairer nia
and it didn't even take me 1hr to get darker
hai~
ok la..
my fault
i nv put sunblock
y?
i got intend to put one ok..
juz tat i ask for sunblock
they ignore me..
dan continue talking..
talk talk talk until i oso forgot bout it
haha!
so tis issue really dampen my mood le
>.<
no mood eat steamboat
keep hai'ing' on it whole thru
lol
dan after steamboat wana sing ktv one
but one mic spoil
in the end oso nv really sing much
(shall go kbox next time)
dan after tat all of us go hospi visit her le~
finally got a bed
thank god
haha!
stayed there for 3 to 4 hrs to pei her
after tat go home liaoz
by the time reach home..
bout 8+pm le ba
dan no long after tat
bout 1hr later?
kana call by mama to go down pei her
*faint*
came as quite a surprise
coz..
my tian bu pa di bu pa de ah ma
will scared of staying there herself
so cute
=P
so me and cousin went down pei her over the night lo
tat's the start of my sleep deprive nights
felt quite bad la..
i'm actually sleeping on the bed
couzie on the chair
and her on the chair too
hehe
not i ba zhan the bed ok..
is i ask her go there sleep she dun wan
coz will get out of breathe
+ coughing and all
so ya lo..
me oso got ask couzie but she oso dun wan
somemore no more chair for me sit le
so sleep bed lo..
curled up in a position so tat i open eyes can see her liaoz
super tired
but..
if u ask me if i actually sleep..
i can't ans u
coz i dun feel like i got sleep b4,
neither do i feel like i've not slept
but worst thing is duno she got sleep not la..
coz whole night she'll talk talk talk when eyes close
dan eyes open oso can continue talk
omg..
so worried lo
dan halfway in the middle of the night suddenly wake up
say wan take taxi home
*faintsss*

SUN:
finally morning came
felt like time passed super slow
dan uncle and aunt came at bout 11+am to visit her
after tat bring us home le~
reach home immediately go sleep
damn tired (I bet u can’t imagine how tired we are)
dan bout 3.30pm wake up..
went amk hub meet miny
went to eat, play pool till bout 8pm
go home liaoz
papa come fetch me
haha!
coz rushing to pick my mama back from hospi ar
she has been accompanying her whole afternoon
dan i go take over
so there goes my night
same thing happened
juz tat...
i THINK it somehow got worst
and also got better
confusing?
in some way ba..
as in..
she kinda stop talking in her sleep le la..
waking up less often
but..
more random and kiddish liaoz
thou iz happening lesser
so whole night jiu like tis
until tis morning
dan me go prepare for sch le..
come sch straight from hospi
majiam zombie lo
isn't any awake till now
lucky tml no sch (thou there’s performance, no time prac!!), wed no sch
^-^

as u can see la..
whole wkend like tat gone le
dun even hav time to go online chat chat slack slack
ya la..
my com is on..
i'm online
but i dun even got the chance to get near my com
haha!
still intend to go there watch show de lo
in the end nv even watch
pray hard iz only 4 days
no longer dan tat..
i wan her home!!
decided le..
i shall stay at home as often as possible to pei her
papa say de dui
she old le..
wan most de jiu shi got ppl pei her
to let her feel secure..
somemore if she go home
i'll learn all the culinary skills from her
hehe~
dun do something tat u know u'll regret later
^-^
whole night thou we keep laughing at the cuteness of her
but deep down,
iz known tat we are all very worried
praying hard tat it didn’t got worst
today mon
doc coming
pray hard iz gd news
or at least no bad news
*pray*

ok..
enough of tis liaoz
**switch**
UT today
sian la..
pray hard i knw hw to do man
somemore today lesson
wah~
sian
dun even know wat's going on
>.<
worst thing
was reading DNA microarray whole thru
until like 5 min ago dan i realise
i'm suppose to do northern blotting
zzzzzz
lack of sleep do make ppl blur
haha!
not in the right mind now


~fishy (even if u're smiling, i know deep down inside u're not)~