nyes yes yes..
i AM complaining..
blame me all u wan..
juz SUPER unhappy
so sry min
kinda vent abit of my frustration on u
i'm super duper sorry
i'll try to control it next time..

i juz DUN undestand
y everything is happening all at once..
me can't take it one la~
is tis yr really a bad yr for me?
pls tell me no..
iz juz the 4th day of the yr..
my laptop's fan out of a sudden giv me prob
irritating sound coming out from the fan..
iz like..
whole hols so long dun giv prob la..
now my sch JUZ started it and it starts giving me prob..
same goes for my mp3..
duno wat's wrong wit it manz..
listen halfway will stuck there one..
think too many thing inside..
dan all tis is not all
there's more to come...

today band prac
dan realise tat open house is juz NEXT WK!!
only got 2 practice left la~
and we are not prepared T-T
dan lehz..
juz now hafiz in band say..
call us dun be late for band prac
(i remember him say wat iz new yr 1st day of band.. dun wan scold.. meaning other days will scold la!! mind u.. try scolding me of eating and thus coming late for band.. i'll quit manz.. flute section dun need me anyway.. i know u'll be so happy tat i quit.. and YES i AM threatening.. or maybe i should say this wouldn't work much but hack!!)
but wah lao..
i dun understand la..
i NEED to eat one lehz..
not depriving me off my dinner juz to be on time for band prac la~
tell me wat, eat more during lunch
but hey..
u know ar..
ppl me LUNCH is most of the time at bout 10+ lehz..
u tell me..
tat's lunch or breakfst..
no matter how much i eat by 5pm it'll be GONE la..
i know u will tell me there are loads of ppl skipping their meals too
but hey..
consider ok..
i'm already almost UNDERWEIGHT
dan no meat in my body to metabolise liao..
and now u wan me giv up my meals?
wth la~
call me gain weight rite?
how am i suppose to do so when i'm deprived of my food?!
i can tell u la..
in band u can hardly see one so bony like me le la~
now still depriving me off my food
u can say can like buy some snacks keep until later dan eat..
but hey..
sometimes u are tat hungry tat even those snack can't fill u lehz..
dan somemore later if i skip my meal
in between prac i no strength play
tuning out or wat
who responsible
iz juz another 15min!!
can't u juz let me off?
y last time band prac i remember i still get to eat la..
but now lehz..
eat oso cannot..
yes..
i know i'm complaining and watever..
see le unhappy not my prob
coz tis is MY blog..
i wana complain..
wat can u do..
dislike me la..
kick me out of band..
reason wit me..
watever u wan
i dun care..
me getting more rebellious?
ya.. i think so too..

tml (or should i put it today) going sam's chalet..
but lesson ending at bout 4..
reach there left bout 3 hrs nia..
thinking of sat go..
but sway sway sat need go the d***** thingy
in the end can't go on sat..
missing bie (not as in TAT kinda missing)
coz she sat dan go but me can't
somemore me bringing the stupid labcoat there la!!
HEAVY
and i hav to travel all the way from WOODLANDS to PASIR RIS
mind u..
count the stops..
i know there are ppl living there..
but not my prob..
i only know iz far...
@$#&*&^%$#&*)^#!#%#%*&*)

what should i conclude bout those tat i've said above?
say tat i'm a super unorganise person?
maybe~
or should i juz say tat i'm some unreasonable idiot?
ya..
maybe~
but wat can i do?
can only type my grudges here..
so u can't blame me..
if all tis things happen to u all at once..
i think u will complain too..
u might say u won't but not my prob..
coz i WILL!!
don't see me as some great gal who alway nvm bout anything k..
i DO dislike things..
juz tat dun say only..
and tis is the result of having things bottled up..
zzzzzzzz


~fishy (i think ppl will get so pissed wit me manz)~