duno should i say tat iz a great day today
or should i say that iz a super bad day
ok..
as usual
long entry
recounting from the beginning of the day
haha!

early in the morning
was starving..
haven eaten for almost 24hrs
see how kelian i am?
being deprived of food when i'm already so thin
hai~
tough life
haha!
anyway..
thanks to andrea who offered to share the fried rice wit me
but i only ate 3 spoons la~
dun wan take too much of her food
later she not enough ^-^

dan today change team..
tis is considered a lucky one..
coz at least i'm not in the same team as the unwanted one
but me team only 4 ppl
1 nv come today somemore
left we 3
but nvm
but still worked well

after sch
band~
iz TOTALLY in a mess
tat's the start of my long long entry (me predicting la)
although my anger and watever is currently not present
i'm not sure whether i talk halfway the anger will come back not
haha!
anyway..
played alvamar and symphonic variation today
both pieces to me is a super nono
but alvamar still OKAY~~~ la
symphonic variation?
tat's the WORST of the WORST
hai~
i dun understand la..
seriously..
i KNOW tat our dear mr conductor is disappointed in us
i can see tt (i hav eyes fyi)
but helo~
our band is not up till tat standard yet la..
and yet u are expecting so much
yes..
u are saying u wan us to be in tempo ONLY
but helo helo helo..
ask urself..
are u really asking for tempo? or more?
ok la..
dun say wrong notes
but u see..
in the first place.. u not only wanted us to play in tempo
u are also asking for us to play the dynamics (crescendo, f, mp, watever)
pls la..
u think we wat..
some great great band out there izit?
we are juz RPWS
not some pro band
how the hell are we going to do so many things when tis is the FIRST time we playing the piece?
u teach me la~
ours eyes are like already GLUED to the pile of tao gays already..
where will go notice those dynamics u tell me
for sight reading..
our concern most of the time is to play correctly
dynamics are normally polished after tat..
NOT when we are sightreading..
if tis piece easy maybe u can still afford to
but no way..
wth is tis piece?
grade 6 grade 7?
or more?
pls la..
i ask u..
u teach someone piano for eg..
is 1 step 1 step one wat..
slowly from grade 1 to grade 2 dan 3, 4, 5, etc
iz STEP BY STEP
how the hell are u going to call a grade 3 person to play a grade 6 piece and expecting the person to be able to play it?
i mean u can la..
but tat goes to loads and loads of prac..
so y not start slow? (although not TAT slow)
seriously i dun mind playing tis piece..
practicing and all
juz tat
i'm super not happy y first time and yet asking so much la..
sometimes i seriously find it very contradicting
hard to accept
i know iz hard to teach us
disappointment, anger, frustrations is all unavoidable..
but seriously..
iz too great a jump la~

u've been saying that for the tune in we hav to show the guest who we are
showing them the situation we are in..
so for wat should we play such pieces?
i mean..
since u wan show them our standard..
might as well find one which is probably abit harder and not EXTREMELY?
iz probably not extremely hard to u and some of the members but iz DEFINATELY for me..
u can see it urself..
u hav been comparing us wit other poly bands (for eg SP) when u urself are calling us to not compare..
so wat is tis..
it contradicts!!
if u really wan tis piece to be played..
dun ask so much for now..
slowly (not very slow la~) guide us..
let us improve step by step..
like for eg..
let us get the notes right first..
dan maybe the rhythm..
(coz i believe if u wan us to keep in tempo.. it'll be quite hard as we are too concious on playing the right notes.. if we like play wrongly.. we'll go haywire and there goes ur rhythm.. so y not start on the notes first?)
dan maybe the dynamics..
some polishing..
i think it can be done la..
but if all the pieces were to be like tat..
i think i myself will go mad..
coz remember..
we not only hav band..
we hav our own other commitments..
u would hav think..
we had so many time after open house to practice..
got like 3 days extra dun need go sch can go practice..
but helo..
not everyone super free one ok..
take me for eg..
i dun even get to watch my all time fav tv..
where the hell do i even get the time to prac?
so yupz..
dun expect too high..

dan tis is not all..
after band..
some serious matter come le..
they say wat the band now oweing SWO they all $$
coz of the tix + some miscommunication
and now..
we are kinda in some way expected to fork out $$?
although is thru ur own will?
no compulsory
but pls la..
who would not help when hear tis?
i mean..
at least for me when i heard bout it the first thing i thot of was to help fork out some $$?
(and i did ok.. 10 bucks flew juz like tat)
*heartache*
thus i'm left wit no $$ for crystal jade tml!!!
those who nv sell any tix one ar..
pls contribute abit hor~
even me no $$ oso contributed already
when i sold all my tix!
so yupz..
thinking of contributing more..
which almost means i hav to say bye to my curling of hair
hai~

after band rushed back
coz orange going for her result show la
wonder hows the result since it should be out by now..
11.44 le~
orange haven called..
wonder how it is..
hai~
anyway..
was super duper happy la..
my house wireless connection is working!!
i'm finally connected to my house de wireless!!
*jumping*
after so many months
OMG!!
and guess wat..
the 'password' tat i used is like the same few letters i've been typing for the pass few months la..
but everytime say limited connectivity
but tis time is sad CONNECTED!!
OMG!!!
jumping wit joy now manz..
haha!


~fishy (majiam big big mood swing.. happy and anger and happy)~