saddened
wat i'm most afraid of really happened..
find it really weird.. getting to know bout it from my cousin sis
throat cancer
last stage..
1/2 or 1yr more to live
felt so lost when i got to know bout it..
of all of wat i thot, i did think of this possibility but nv in my whole life will i expect it to really happen..
duno how to face it..
wat's even more funny is tat i'm holding back my tears..
swallowing it into me..
y am i doing so?
because i'm in class.. if i broke down in front of them, they might think wat happened..
but i'm unable to control myself..
tears filled my eyes..
faked it by telling people that i'm having a runny nose but i dun think they will really believe it ba..
maybe they know tat i'm crying..
juz tat..
they dun wana say? maybe so.. (scully they mistaken me thot i broke wit my bf.. wahahahaha!!)
suddenly wana do something for my granny..
y did i only wana do something for her now when she's going to be gone? i duno..
regretss
people.. if u see me suddenly crying for no reason.. ignore me..
i'm juz trying to accept it..
needs time ok?
^-^
duno mama papa intend to tell me bout it not..
they like..
dun seemed intend to?
or maybe they duno how to put it to me..
maybe..
the thot of my granny having to go through all those cancer therapy..
my heart ache..
she so old le.. T-T
hai~ enough of the sad sad thing la.. switch my mind..
happy happy!! :D


rDNA grades..
SUX!!
dun ask manz..
almost failed.. (and i really mean it)
having second thots on going band today..
rDNA so yucky.. wana go study lehz.. >.<
how~
somemore me dun really wana go home early..
eeek!!

~fishy~