omg.. i think i'm the most evil person in this world.. i feel so damn evil.. more evil than any of those bad bad character in fairy tales.. not that i'm actually harmed anyone like they did la.. but i think what i'm doing is WORST la!! i will be so punished manz.. hai~ since when hav i became such a person.. talking bad bout ppl behind their back like nobody's business?? or izit that i'm always been like tat?? or iz quite a normal thing for ppl to talk bad bout ppl.. tell me ppl!! i duno wat's going on with me but ya.. here i am.. feeling so bad bout myself.. talking bad bout people.. but some people i just can't stand them!! but i dun wana actually spoil me relationship with them.. iz like.. i will still see them in the future.. dun wan becoz of tis kinda thing dan in the end make our life hard for each other and probably for other ppl.. and in the end.. i'm doing tis kinda thing.. tell me.. which is worst? ppl might say i'm juz giving reasons for myself being timid.. not wanting to stand up for myself.. but well.. maybe? i duno.. partly ba.. but definitely not the total reason.. tat's how useless i am.. haha! tat's y i say.. i'm the most most most evil person in this world.. i should be punished wit myself being friendless manz.. ppl!! dun be deceive by me.. i'm EVIL!! SUPER DUPER EVIL!!! u nv know i'm talking bad bout u.. yes yes yes.. YOU!! haiz.. think people who knows me (the me who always talk bad bout ppl infront of them) will think that i'm a super evil person.. or am i??

my future kinda decided le ar.. i'll go work after poly.. coz i dun think i'm able to go uni one la.. sci sch de gpa muz be bout 3.8 and above lehz.. if i can get tat gpa ar.. i'll be in the roll of honours in sch le la.. top 5% in the cohort.. so pls la.. 3.8.. sounds like a easy number but iz NEVER easy.. i told mama bout it.. i'll hav to get 3.8 in order to get to uni.. guess wat she say.. "work harder lo.." i'm like WTH la.. if iz so easy.. y not she try it.. if iz so easy.. everyone will be getting it le.. haiz.. to them.. i'm juz someone who doesn't understand their situation.. their difficulties.. but hai~ do they know i'm actually the one worrying much bout them? i hate it when they come and sit down beside me and tell me things as if i got no idea bout it like tat.. dan when my temper go bad.. they'll juz say "pls go and change ur bad temper la.. with ur tis bad temper, can't get u any further one.." something like tat one.. iz like.. do they know tat i'm juz using tis bad temper to stop them from telling me all those things? i dun wana hear them la.. i know they had their probs and all.. but do they ever think if i hav my probs or not.. whenever wana discuss something wit them.. i'll always be the one losing out.. it ALWAYS ended up as if i do not understand their situation.. pls la.. if i dun understand them.. i won't even be discussing with them le.. talk to them yesterday.. in the end lehz.. i nv get to finish what i wana say.. they jiu cut off.. in the end.. they got the wrong idea.. but well.. can't be bothered to explain to them.. they wana think i'm a useless person or watever.. up to them manz.. i'll juz use results to prove to them.. blehxx

let me change a mood ba.. happy mode.. ^-^ haha! from tis u can really see how big a mood swing a can go la.. extremes manz.. today suddenly got the mood.. took maple from eunice (duno her name izit like tat spell not lehz).. and ya.. i went to play.. haha! felt kinda boring playing it but yupz.. i still played.. haha! yesterday when walking home.. saw a juz born kitten.. iz soooooo cute la!! small size too.. *eye shining* tat kitten totally brighten up my day manz.. if only i get to see it everyday (if so the kitten will become cat liaoz le).. had so much things happened yesterday.. 4 chapters.. haha! some of it almost made my blood vessel burst manz.. hai~ but nvm la.. iz a new day today.. new day tml.. all will be forgotten.. wahahahaaha!! oh ya.. the change of skin.. cute rite?! haha! fishy rulez!! and ya.. heard from someone tat goldfish actually not really 5 sec memory one.. got ppl proved bout it already.. so yupz.. tis shows that i'm not tat forgetful.. haha! or i'm worst? lol.. during klz went to sign up for the maple thingy.. almost forget bout my username.. eunice and andrea almost kana me make until vomit blood la~ haha! coz i juz saw the username like 5 min ago and there i am.. forgotting what i entered.. haha! but ya la.. in the end got remember la~ after all, goldfish is not forgetful.. haha!


~fishy (ok.. emo and looong entry.. evil me!!)~