didn't wanted to write any entry de.. or should i say.. i wanted to write an entry long time ago but is damn lazy to log in to blogger.. so in the end gave up writing.. but now.. haha! damn bo liao.. so log in lo.. Heee..

today in band they announced the ppl to play for animation medley.. dun need say.. i obviously nv get to play de.. coz my playing not gd la.. can see tat.. so not disappointed at all.. or should i say was abit disappointed la.. but well.. i know my playing not gd de.. so nv really put high hope on it.. haha! can't really be bothered bout it anyway.. but wat makes me even more disappointed de is y they dun let the yr 3 play lo.. iz like.. they going to grad le.. dan our very own concert oso duno when la.. tis time got chance to let them work wit other ppl in concert.. y not giv them the chance la.. i believe we tis younger generation de.. will hav chance de ma.. iz not tat i'm not happy that the better players get a chance to play or watever shit la.. but.. dun u think should oso giv the not so gd ones a chance? juz like me section de playing first or second.. iz like me dun think should keep having me, hannah and jieying playing 1st and orange, sarah and jorin playing second la.. should all hav a chance to play first or second de ma.. i do admit tat i like playing 1st (coz got melody, who dun wan.. although 2nd oso not TAT bad), but i seriously dun mind letting others play 1st dan i go second play de lo... as long as i dun stay there forever.. haha! tat's y.. even i oso dun like.. those stay in 2nd de will like meh? so not gd ma.. but i duno~ the choice is not in me.. i'm no section leader nor principal player.. so wat can i do.. blog lo~ haha! dan i oso think not very gd for sandy to like play picc and flute as and when she wan lo.. iz like.. i think the balance will be out la.. esp i think sandy likes to play the melody? as in first? so the balance will oso be out lo.. so.. i duno~ me juz feel tat iz not so gd la.. (sandy, if u ever see tis.. me not saying u anything ar.. but if u do feel unhappy when see tis entry, feel free to tell me.. we can TALK!! haha! ^-^) hai~ i duno.. maybe i should juz close both eyes and nt care anything around me.. maybe dan i'll have lesser complains..

having serious mood swings nowadays.. sianz.. hate it manz.. see ppl i dun like, i'll dislike tat person more.. see ppl i ok wit, suddenly will dun like tat person.. dan when mood ok le.. all is back to normal.. watever bad bad thots i think bout tat person.. it'll be GONE~ haha! i'm such a evil and sinful person la~ (ok.. 'sinful' tis word me use is juz not me.. haha!) better becareful everyone!! ah!!!! i'm so evil!! eeeek!! y am i such a bad person?! no wonder i had so little friends.. haiz..

me think.. anhydrous *opps* dun really like me ba.. as in.. maybe coz i'm a boring person? she dun really like my company or wat? haha! she like serene more ba.. sobzz.. see.. i'm so unwanted.. iz like everytime go home.. she go home wit serene only nvm de.. but when go home wit me ar.. will find ppl go back together.. yesterday oso like tat.. serene not in sch.. she rather wait for her another friend to walk back together (including me) dan to walk alone wit me.. hai~ still say wat very tired wana sleep lo.. i think tat's juz coz she dun wana spend time wit me ba.. i'm such a boring person.. BORING ME!! dan still got another time oso something like tat one.. haiz.. feel so hurt.. teach me how to be less boring ppl!! y am i like tat!! do i hav a stupid face tat ppl dislike? if so tell me.. at least i'll know? haiz..


~fishy (sounding sooo emo.. eeeek! wat has become of me!! AHHH!!!!!)~