today W36K class having there first day chalet at costa sand pasir ris.. and yupz.. as seen/guessed.. i did not go.. going tml.. hehe.. still dun dare ask my papa bout the staying over thingy lehz.. somehow juz unable to summon up the courage to ask.. haha! funny rite? my own papa lehz.. not as if ask le will die or wat.. juz haiz.. duno lehz.. iz the fear la.. always like tat one.. me scared wat will happen to me after he said no.. i'm sooooo prepared for the ans to be no but yet, my reaction will still be the same (although i haven ask but tat's wat happened to me for the pass few times la).. dun understand y other ppl can be in so gd relationship wit their papa but not me.. somehow jiu shi got tat barrier between us tat made it hard for me to communicate wit him ar.. hai~ i seriously need all the courage i can hav manz..

went kbox with huising instead.. ^-^ FINALLY lo.. after half a yr.. sang for 5 hrs.. hohoho!! but.. still fell abit bu shuang lehz.. but well.. at least i fulfilled my wish.. haha! die oso happy le.. :X

stumbled upon my bro de report slip.. see le me damn sad la.. emo!! haiz.. guess wat i saw (think not tat hard to guess ba).. straight As and a B.. haiz.. if only ONE of my report slip is as nice wah~ dan i'll be damn happy le.. hmmm.. guess my sec 2 report slip.. think should be ranging from A to F ba.. maybe i'll giv it a check later.. haha! doubt i'll hav any A.. maybe start from B ba.. hehe.. come to think of it.. me papa few days ago suddenly pop out tis qns "ur bro is aiming for ajc, do u think he can make it?" now think.. he seems to be like hinting me "see, ur bro is aiming for something and he's going for it. wat bout u?" something like tat one.. haiz.. juz thinking of it makes me sad.. ya lo.. wat's my aim in my life? nothing.. seriously nothing.. more to say.. i dun dare to think ba.. the thot of my future.. haha! iz something which will giv me goosebumps when i think of it ar~ see no future in me.. T-T actually is got think b4 la.. me like psychology.. but i'm damn afraid of it too.. i scared later i study halfway dan realise psychology is actually something which is totally out of wat i expected.. dan by dan.. it'll be a waste of $$, a waste of time.. tat's y iz always my wish to die early.. haha! coz like tis.. i dun hav to worry bout my future.. no future.. hohoho! (tat sounds like a bad thing to think bout) another reason, i'm pure lazy.. yupz.. DAMN LAZY.. so all and all.. blame it on myself being lazy ba.. somehow hardworking this thing is juz not me.. lazy? tat's me... ^-^

as i always say.. my papa muz be very proud of my bro ba.. having such a great son.. hmmm.. hav i talk bout my bro b4? bout his GREATNESS (=.=)???? lol.. let me talk abit bout him ba.. since i dun remember saying it.. hehe.. tis GREAT bro of mine.. currently taking special stream in sec sch.. learning jap (but i NEVER hear him speak any bit on it -__-).. currently having loads of As in his report slipssss.. damn hardworking.. nv fails to pass up his homework (not like me.. always delaying my hwk).. see him always busy wit tuition and tuition and more tuition.. learning swimming too.. his coach once asked him if he wanted to join the national team but he rejected (should i say iz so stupid of him?argh).. sometimes will see him go online and find info on things (ESP SCIENCE) which even me nv come across b4 or should i say, things which i'm learning now? see.. although iz not alot.. but all these things is juz enough to make my papa so proud of him.. coz y? all these things are something which i can never achieve in my life.. something which he can do and i can't.. haiz.. and wat's more.. he's a guy!! (obviously la.. if not call bro for wat.. =.=) and alllllll of these.. are juz so gd enough to cover up his so not gd attitude at home.. papa always close 2 eyes when he did not do anything which he suppose to do but open up 2 eyes on things which i didn't do and i need to do (u should get me ba).. still.. i'm soooooooo proud of my bro.. BUT.. i hate him too.. bleh~

hmmm.. after talking bout my bro.. i'll talk something bout me ba.. giv u something to compare me and my bro.. dan probably u'll finally understand y.. haha! hmmm.. so yupz.. my ""GREATNESS"".. studied express (although iz normal but how the hell am i to compare wit a special~).. learnt jap too.. but for 1 month only and currently remembered nothing bout it.. hai~ my report slipss??? no As but should be alot of reds.. always nv do hwk and delay in passing up work.. forever busy wit? nothing.. shopping, playing, spending $$, wasting resource.. tat's wat i do.. and yupz.. learnt swimming too.. but gave up half way.. needless say any national team.. even juz swimming alone.. i'm quite slow.. haiz.. see me go online.. yupz.. i'm really ONLINE.. chatting on msn, playing neopets, surfing net.. anything except studies.. no aim in life, everyday eat sleep play.. only better thing which i hav compared to my bro is.... i'm better in using the com, repairing "spoilt" (they not really spoilt, juz tat i know wat to do to make it back to normal which my bro can't) thing, handling electronics stuff which comes wit technology (somehow they are much easier to understand).. so yupz.. as u can see.. other dan i'm elder by my bro by 4 yrs.. i'm nothing when compared to him.. hai~ if u are my parents. tell me who will u like better, me or my bro? and dun forget.. my image to my parents: fierce, bad tempered, only know how to eat sleep play, money spender and nv a earner.. haiz.. tat's me la~

tml going chalet.. hope tat it'll be a great one.. let me forget everything wan juz play~ ^-^ shit! still got the stress not solve yet..


long entry rite? getting bored? dan iz ending now.. hai~ emo!! T-T
~fishy (something is wrong wit msn too.. can't sign in.. argh!!)~