how should i say bout my feelings now.. angry? sad? pissed off? sian diao? i duno~ mixed emotion.. haha! next wk.. busy wk la~ i shall tell u wat's happening.. 11 to 13 having W36K class chalet.. 14 having band bbq but i'm not going.. so doesn't really affect me much.. 15 is 207 sec sch class bbq.. can u see tat?? me booked almost everyday.. still nvm.. on top of tat.. juz like half hr ago.. sandy told me tat my pri sch friends are organising a chalet too.. for gathering.. on the 11 to 13!!!!!!! wth la~ y muz everything on next wk!!! i damn sad la~ iz like.. all those i wana go de. y muz they clash?!?!?!?! dan iz like.. the pri sch chalet one.. they asked alot of ppl le dan ask me la.. ASSUMING tat i'm free?? sobzz.. feeling kinda sad la~ but they trying to help me to adjust to 12 to 14 la.. feeling kinda bad to make them change the date all becoz of me.. but dan.. wat can i do.. me whole hols 4 wks all so free.. except next wk and yet EVERYONE wants it on next wk.. wat can i do?? so wana cry la~ feeling so vunerable (duno rite word not) now.. like everything oso wana cry.. feel so useless.. but wat can i do.. things forever doesn't go well for me manz.. T-T me wana giv up one chalet.. but i know tat all these will be like only once de lo.. as in.. the pri sch chalet and w36k chalet.. so both me oso cannot dun go la~ wonder who will be able to understand how i feel now.. haiz..

went to do passport wit papa and mama today.. dan got one auntie wana collect our IC from us.. dan she was like telling my mama "ur daughter haven 15 rite? so should be haven collect IC ....." something like tat one.. dan i was like at the side diaoz lo.. dan my mama told her tat me 18 le.. she was like so shock la.. -____- do i so look like i'm not 15? *faint* sat is one auntie kinda 'hinting' tat i'm fat.. today is one saying tat i'm kinda 'underage'.. dotz la~ wat's wrong wit everyone these days.. or should i say.. wat's wrong wit me.. haiz.. but ok la.. at least tat auntie is say i look younger dan my age.. not older.. but if one day someone will guess tat i look older dan my age.. hmmm... there muz be some prob wit tat person's eye le.. and i'll be cursing and swearing tat person too.. ^-^

sian diao.. msn STUCK at tis moment.. wth!! things juz doesn't go rite wit me la~ duno who.. hav a grp convo for w36k.. causing my msn to get stuck.. sianzzz.. not tat i'm blaming anyone but well.. i'm not having a gd mood now la~ argh!! msn sux manz!!! omg.. juz now even my computer oso stuck!! iz getting amn laggy now~ WTH!! feel like slamming the com la!!


feeling moody and useless now.. haiz..
~fishy~