feeling so sad now la~ got E for my pharmaco ut 2.. yes.. feel sad for me ba.. so scared later i fail tis module la.. VERY scared.. T-T those peeps out there.. getting B+, getting C jiu complain until duno like wat.. me lehz.. get E lehz.. i think by now i should hav the rite to complain already ba.. pls la.. juz be happy tat u manage to pass ok? DUN complain.. everytime u wana complain. PLS spare a thot for those who got worst.. they nv complain, so y should u.. juz be happy tat u nv get worst dan them.. somehow.. i feel tat no one understand how i feel ar.. ya.. iz not them getting E.. so they can't expect how sad am i.. i dare say la.. if one of my friend got E, i think i at most oso an wei abit.. coz there really nothing i can do.. ya~ but i do pity them.. so dun really expect someone to like an wei me or wat ba.. juz hope tat ppl out there can STOP complaining bout their results la~ if u got a E, dan tell me.. i'll let u complain as much as u wan.. u wan complain for the whole wk i oso will lend my ear to u.. if not.. stop complaining!! maybe some peeps will say, "who call u dun study harder.. slack slack slack.." ya.. maybe i deserve tat.. blame it on myself rite? ya.. maybe i should.. going to study harder for my remaining test le.. let tis be the first and last E that i got..

as me and sarah agreed, bad things nv come one by one.. they like all stick together and come together one.. for her.. haiz.. super pity her.. felt sad for her.. but.. i juz can't do anything.. as for me? not only is my grades getting worst.. the condition on my dear leg is oso worsening.. everytime i see the thingy spread.. iz like my heart kana stab la.. feeling so pain.. as aliza always say ar.. muz learn to appreciate.. ya.. me from this really learnt to appreciate what's given to me le.. after i recover.. i'll take super duper care of my legs manz.. and my hands, my face, my hair.. watever.. coz u nv know the next min wat will happen to them ar.. juz like the ppl around u..

as i mentioned b4.. my pa say my leg tat stupid patch there is wat shi zhen.. went to read up abit on it.. eng call eczema.. can cause by alot of things la.. duno which is mine.. oso know can be cause by stress ar.. duno izit not.. haha! but.. am i stress?? i duno.. maybe i'm feeling stress but i'm juz trying to avoid it ar.. but stress bout wat.. dun ask me.. wat i stress bout might be small small thing to other ppl ba.. but dan.. diff ppl can tahan diff level of stress.. maybe my stress tolerance is lower? i duno.. juz hope tat it will fast fast go away ba~ was hoping my parents will bring me to see doc la~ but.. they juz say, go see doc lo.. but nv took the action by bringing me there.. izit becoz they think me old enough le, so can like go see doc myself? hmm.. sometimes juz think that, i somehow jiu shi lack some care + concern for my parents.. but well.. wat can i do.. tell them to like giv more attention to me? haha! funny ar.. 18 yr old le.. still caring for attention from parents.. haha! sound like kid.. but come to think of it.. somehow dun remember getting their attention much ever since my bro is born? coz the focus seems to always be on him? haha! sad rite? but well.. i'm still living well and alive!! coz they are still providing me with what i need.. so should i be happy bout it? ya.. maybe i should.. some ppl out there dun even got parents with them.. i should be happy tat i got both.. ya.. juz be contented.. ^-^

went for band today.. finally.. after so many weeks.. so miss my instrument la.. b4 tat had a section meeting, deciding who we wan as the pp and sub-pp (pp= principal player).. in the end concluded hannah, sandy and raymond shall go audition.. haha! my choice? i chose sandy as pp and raymond as sub-pp.. y? coz.. i think hannah.. in the committee le.. dan if she be principal player.. abit to busy for her ba~ so nv choose her.. dan i y i choose sandy lehz.. hmm.. coz i think she can? dan for raymond.. i think should giv him a chance lo.. somemore i hav to admit he does play quite well la.. ok la.. better dan me ok? (who isn't better dan me anyway) ya.. thus i chose him to be sub-pp lo.. but.. alot ppl seem to put sandy and hannah.. so kinda sandy and hannah got the most vote la~ i'm like the only one who chose raymond? haha! today oso heard jorin's playing.. she oso quite gd lo.. but she dun wan.. so.. think better not lo.. but maybe next yr.. i'll elect her ar~ ^-^ tat's if i'm still able to elect next yr.. haha! think should be can ba..

oh ya.. heard tat will be having performance after hols.. and concert at either tis yr end or beginning of next yr.. so damn happy bout it lo.. think tat the only thing i'm feeling happy bout for so long ba.. so miss performing with the band.. i promise i'll work hard for the performance de.. ^-^ nv regret going band today manz.. and the conductor.. tutti band.. haha! wat does it mean ar? he gav us a duno duno where de song.. short one.. and wan us to learn to SING!! OMG!! i know la.. ppl always say.. u can play, u can sing.. but.. >.< i think i'm the exception? i can't sing la.. as much as i like to sing.. i juz can't sing.. it'll be soooo awful tat.. i think everyone will faint, the glass will break and all la~ T-T


OMG.. some of wat i said is like.. kinda childish? emo? stupid? haha! read le better not tell anyone hor.. shhhhhhhhh~~~~
~fishy~