Friday, September 12, 2008
dun really intend to post tis up but...i scared later if i dun do it.some ppl will start saying me againhow come i dun inform u all dethou iz not really very much related to u la.hmmmmhow to put it lehz..ehhhhhmy grandpapa got into hospi recentlydue to some infection in the legand...current situation.not very gdat ICUrelying on some machines to survive.and iz decided today (11/9) tat we'll juz let him go tml (12/9)didn't expect myself to be in tis kinda situation bastill rem last time duno wat lessongot talk bout tis kinda thing always thot.if iz me, of coz is let tat person go la.iz so hard for the person to struggle staying alive and yet he/she juz lie down in bedwat's the point.but till today dan realise.tis decision is so hard to make.ya.u'll know iz to lessen the sufferings.but stillu can't bear to do it.duno hw am i going to face it tml.haizdoc say...at most 10hrshaizand u pplif u do read tisand is so intending to msg me to ask me how i ami can tell u now.i'm totally finei understand perfectly tat iz part of lifejuz...bu she de.and.u should know how i always rant on how a cry baby i amso yupzdun need to worry ba.and if u're ever thinking of paying me a visittat's even more not needed le.coz..u oso duno my grandpapa ar.come see me oso no pointso...yeah~^^but if u really so so sooooo nth to do wana come down. dan i oso can't help ar.juz rem to text me a msg.coz u nv know i won't be there at tat particular timehaizheard wat my aunt said todayfelt kinda sad hearing it.she said (in hokkien thou) "within a yr both pa & ma gone le."T-T1 yr.it isn't a very long timeat least.iz still not long enough for u to really get over a personand ya...to me iz grandpa & grandma.to them iz their parentseven more sad lo.and me lehz.oso no better ba.the time i spent with them.i think iz so much more dan my parents la.and last time.everytime i go home latewill usually see granny sitting outside.kinda waiting for me to reach home.and after she pass away.iz grandpapaand now.there's no one.T-Tso u pplcherish every little moments u've got wit ppl around udun like me.regret not talking a lil more to them when they're still here^^can't believe how i actually survived thru todaybet u i'll get the best actress award if i go acting haha!i can still laugh and joke whole thru lapls tell me how i did tatheheprobably..coz there's ppl around me ba.bth if i'm alone myselfi'll surely cry de (i'm a crybaby. rem?)oso duno where come so many water. hai~dun care la.the day has passedanyway.thanks loads for listening.^^(u'll be remembered)
