oh man.. was thinking on the mrt.. i'm 19 this yr!! i know.. i'm abit slow but yes.. i juz realise and started to worry tat i'm actually 19 tis yr.. can u believe it? i passed 18 yrs juz like tat and my 'sweet' 19 is coming? and next yr... i'm turning 20.. hai~ 20 still sound like a big number to me la.. like u tell me 'oh.. i'm 23 yrs old'.. i'll be like.. wah.. quite old ar.. image to me is like an adult le.. big big ppl.. but when really go think.. 19 and 23.. iz juz 4 yrs diff ok~ not those wat 10 big big yrs difference.. which means.. i'm almost an adult.. nearing adult age.. wat hav i done.. nothing.. hai~ somemore.. where in the who world do i look like a 19 yr old gal.. think i look more like 16+ or 17 ba.. ok.. maybe not 16 anymore wit my curled hair.. but fine la~ at least my heart is still on 16 can? i duno.. remember saying bout tis wit tay quite some time ago.. but yes.. i'm slow.. i only started to realise it NOW.. haiz.. at tat point of time i'm still like okok lehz.. now start to think of it.. it seemed totally wrong lehz.. tis is really bad manz.. haha!

think i'm having a huge mood swing here.. suddenly feeling moody.. can something/someone come and brighten me up? wana watch some comedy.. at least i'll be laughing at tat moment ar.. y am i so moody? gd qns.. i oso wan know..

talking wit cz now.. whether to quit or not.. haha! seriously.. i duno.. i hate thinking bout qns when i know i would nv get an ans.. he told me to ask myself.. "have u learnt here or not", "have u become stronger?", is this a place for you?"... nice qns eh? ans to them? i duno.. life is in a mess for me.. why? coz i duno wat exactly do i wan.. ppl will say.. 'dan go think bout wat u wan'.. i did try thinking bout it lehz.. seriously.. i did.. but dan.. i can't come to a conclusion.. how bad can one's life be without a goal? me dun really wan to slack the whole time.. i wan a goal.. but where is it? i'm already 19 le.. hav to start looking for my goal liaoz..

wondering why am i writing in these wordy wordy paragraph form ar.. i oso duno.. maybe wan try something new ba.. or should i say iz new? nope.. something different.. haha! hmmmm..staring at my dp now.. beginning to like the flower tat i took ar.. quite nice rite? haha! random.. wan more random stuff? haha! i can giv ar.. juz abit lazy now.. hehe..

think i'm in need of money now le.. if not my kbox would be out.. cannot!! i need $$$$$.. for kbox.. haha! how can my hols life end witout any kbox session? not allowed!! 9 march.. by hook or by crook.. i'm going kbox.. no matter wat meeting, fyp or watever shit.. dun find me.. i'm going block off all connections and go only for kbox.. haha! think i'll end le ba. thou i quite wana type my way thru.. too bad nothing much to type la.. even got oso dun wan share wit u all lehz.. hohoho!! i'm selfish.. lalala~


~fishy~