today.. monday.. my 2 days of precious wkend gone le.. juz like tat.. felt tat i didn't really enjoy my weekend much la.. sadded.. today de anatomy test.. think i totally fluck it la.. didn't study last night.. too tired le.. haiz.. regret la~ dun care.. i'm going to prepare for the next ut like.. from tml? or maybe wed.. hiyo~ think with my tis kinda mentality can never make it one la.. ever since hols end.. i've been into a slacking mood.. i'm so dead.. tis wouldn't do any gd to me la! huiling!! muz study!!! haiz.. still thinking whether to continue the IPBMS not lehz.. continuing means tat i'll be having another sem of 5 day week.. but dan my yr 3 can slack la.. got more time for my projects and all (oh dear.. tis reminds me of my undone PP!!).. dan somemore, i can like.. maybe 'prepare' for IPBMS? as in.. prepare to take IPBMS in my yr 3 which kinda means monash?? yupz.. tis doesn't sound bad rite? sounds like i shoult totally go for it rite? ya.. me think so too.. but dan.. hai~ ppl me dumbo here.. results getting from bad to worst.. tis kinda life.. i duno i can tahan how long la.. i'm REALLY VERY TIRED!! i wan my hols la.. as in my free day on wed.. dan somemore class so competitive.. how am i going to survive??? i won't be so lucky to like go into a class like tis sem de lo.. everyone so nice (with the exception of some) and noisy too.. haiz.. but.. tempting lehz..1 yr in monash and tat's it.. i can get my degree.. see.. sounds nice and gd and tempting and all rite?? ya~ so how~ anyone can like help me wit it.. @_@ but dan ar.. if go there.. the degree i pursue will be like biomed sci la.. ppl me.. wana go to medical sch lehz (ok la.. i know la.. with my no gd no gd reaults abit not possible la~).. haiz.. how.. how i wish i could like die now and all tis will be gone..

coming to dying.. hmm.. (min.. think u better not read.. dun think u'll be happy to read it de.. if u wana read, iz up to u.. anything dun blame me ar~) was like thinking yesterday.. how gd it will be to like juz die.. dun understand how come ppl is like see their life more dan anything la.. as in.. ppl can like giv up everything juz to live.. iz like.. wat's the point.. ppl will hav to die.. iz juz a matter of time.. somemore u live longer, meaning u got more things to worry.. more suffering.. haiz.. so wat's the use.. so i beg ppl ar.. if i, fishy, every like bedridden or wat ar.. kill me ba.. lol.. seriously.. if i got the courage ar.. i think i really go jump to my death or wat le.. prob is i dun dare.. haha.. ppl me scared of pain.. haha! lame rite? so ya.. u can expect me not dying in my own hands as i'm afraid of pain. so if one day i'm dead, dan iz said tt i committed suicide.. dun believe.. haha! coz i won't do tat.. unless i'm not in the rite state of my mind? lol..

ok.. tis paragraph.. ah min.. u can read le.. lol.. ( see i treat u so gd) through tis wkend.. i juz realise tat.. i'm actually quite a simple person lehz.. it doesn't require much for me to like be happy? haha! as long as what i want is given to me.. even if iz juz a small thing.. think i can be happy for like quite some time ba.. lol.. as in.. i dun ji chou too much la.. not as in really hate someone to the core.. maybe yes at tat moment but after sometime jiu ok le.. esp when the person like juz say one word sorry to me.. or like treat me abit gd.. dan i'll be happy again le.. haha! me is eat soft dun eat hard (chi luan bu chi ying) one.. so ya.. u should know wat to do if u make me angry.. lol.. k la.. end le la~ longy post again.. haha!

~fishy~