Saturday, December 03, 2011
well
was studying but apparently i drifted off
waiting for time to come where yh and tay will reply me on wat time to meet
y dun call?
coz i suppose they're busy
wanted to concentrate on studying too
so juz sent a msg and wait for reply
some little time passed since i last blog (as usual)
many happened and i didn't know how should i write it down
many thots running everyday but all still unsolved
realised recently how immature i actually am
and to think tat i've been saying tat some ppl around me are childish
after thinking...
who am i to comment on them
stress
handling work and studies really isn't tat easy afterall
esp when mods taken tis sem are heavy ones
been trying to study hard and diligently but i only barely scrap thru juz one mod
how bout the other 3?
thinking of quitting my job
but...
i have my other thots of y i didn't quit
iz funny how ppl can feel stress when i dun realise it until my biological body tells me tat i'm stress
with huge huge pimples popping out and the mthly routine not being a routine anymore
tat's when i know i'm stress
tat happened when i was studying for exams during may
and after i stopped and think,
ya
i am stress
not only stress but tired
i haven really enjoyed much these days
not as much as i've enjoyed previously
i go to work from mon to sat
and on sun, i'll visit min to study at her side
even on my leave days i'll visit her too.
feeling kinda pai sae like keep troubling her
haiz
now tat she grad, i duno where to go le
hope i'll hav some self control and diligently study at home ba
thou i know i'll hav time like tis where i'll drift off.
ok
i got my reply
time to get ready for kaylen's bday
think i'm going to be late
haiz
hope can leave early so got time come back study abit ba.
else i'll be having a hard time tml
hai~
bye...
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
sch started already
busy busy and busy
time is simply not enough
haiz
so many readings to do
so little time
and u muz be thinking, since no time how come i'm here
well
few min won't kill rite?
had to on com to check things
so yeah
here i am
blogging
haha!
so sian
tat kinda feeling again
haiz
y muz it come back
simply hate it
back to the days where i worry for tis and tat le
think i'll go bonkers soon
juz few mths of paradise
and here i am
still stuck
y muz study!!
tsk!
now i can't seem to even find one day free to stay at home the whole day
zzzz
i hate life now
ahhhhh!!!
i hate youuuu!!!
hmph!!!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
i actually went to check my results again for the duno how many times
haha
tis time i rem to print it out
=P
went to remove my moles
instead, i got 3 damn big black dots on my face now
(like ten times the size of the original la! or was it 100X?!)
iz SUPER UGLY!!!
been complaining bout it since the moment i see it
ultimate regret
haiz
now i duno how to go work tml
duno how to face ppl
duno how to go out on tue too
iz tat bad
i even feel so pai sae until i keep my head down when i walk
sian sian sian~~
help me pray k?
tat it will all dry up and be gone in 4 days!!!
which is by rite wed
the person say de
shortest 4 days longest 1 wk
so....
pray ok
PRAY
and pray for the shortest timing
not the long one
haha
i dun think i can take it any longer lo
haiz
duno how to face ppl liao
=((((
if u try asking me out tis wk or next and i rejected u coz i say i'm too ugly
u know y now
lol
sch's starting soon
like next wk?
even more sian
few mths of hols ended juz like tat
it felt like juz wks only
haha
oh man
i'm suppose to enjoy the last 1 wk of hols
but i'm feeling too pai sae to go out!!!
haiz
but gd thing is tat it made me appreciate how i look ba
haha
but but
it doesn't mean tat i hav to settle with wat i am now
there's always room for improvements isnt it?
hehe
well
i got my plans
after tis mole removal issue
i still needa put braces
after tat....
then prolly i'll stop
haha
eh
i'm considering on double eyelid surgery thou
but tat one need serious serious seeeerious consideration
haha!
we shall see
and...
iz time to save $$$!!!
resolution for the yr:
(eh.. not too late to make resolution rite? thou tis yr only left few mths. lol)
do braces
work hard
save $$
be nice
make friends
smile~~
and
make plans on my single life
(else, get me a bf. but dun anyhow intro me anyone u can find in ur friend list hor. pls get me the kind i wan. which.... is much much harder. haha! so, let me go wit my original plan. it will be a wiser choice. lol)
~it isn't tat bad after all~
Friday, August 26, 2011
一分耕云一分收获，恭喜你、，加油加油。我们都会支持你的，你是最棒的，向前看，什么困难都难不倒你。
tat's wat my dad wrote on fb to me when i told him last night tat i pass 3 mods
haha!
it really touched me
they saw tat i really worked hard
(during tat 2 mths no pay leave)
and appreciated my effort made
even when results aren't gd
they still supported me
haha!
family
wat am i to do without them
even when i'm unwanted by guys out there
at least i still hav them
haha!
i'm truly blessed
with friends and family around
y do i still need a guy
rite?
haha!
time to start planning for my single future le
(eh i think i said tis b4 rite?)
hmmm
hope ppl around me are as bless as i am ba.
life is full of ups and downs
i'm still trying to appreciate the downs and cherish the ups
^^
~tat's it~
Thursday, August 25, 2011
OMG OMG OMG!!!
i actually passed my exams!!!
OH MY GOD!!!
haha.
i know tis excitement came abit late since i checked it ytd
but still,
i'm sooooo happy!!!
haha!
thou i didn't pass all my mods la
but hey,
3 out of 4
totally way way waayyyy out of wat i expected can
when checking my results i'm soooo expecting all fail la
i seriously won't be surprise if i got like 2 of the mod with zero marks
but omg~
i actually pass 3!!!!
i'm sooo happy la.
happy until i cried
haha!
scare some of my colleagues le
they thot wat happen
and yes.
i know me crying isn't anything surprising anymore since tat's wat i do often
haha!
but iz tears of joy~!!!
=DDDD
but then...
thou i pass, but results aren't gd la.
considering tat i'm taking a degree with hons
but my marks...
they only qualify for a pass
haha!
not even a third class hons
sian
needa really buck up work hard and hold on to it!!!
pray tat i do grad in 2 yrs time k?
with a 2nd class hons?
haha!
i know one muz be ambitious
aim high
then will work harder
but....
1st class hons..
like abit hard huh~~
thou not impossible la.
since i THINK i heard tat as long as i got 4 or 5 mods with first class hons results
i'm confirm a 1st class hons student le
haha!
and...
in a way it isn't very hard to get 1st class la
if iz maths?
haha
think 70 marks can qualify for a 1st class le?
seems easy rite?
well...
easier said than done~
even the passing mark of 34 i'm struggling le
wat's more smth tat's more than 2 times tat score.
haha!
oh!
did i mention?
i checked my results a total of 4 times ytd to make sure tat i really passed 3 mods
haha!
i so scared later they will tell me smth went wrong somehow and wat i see isn't really wat i got la
haiz
tis shows how much i'm unable to believe tat i actually can pass the mods
lol
and one of the mod tat i was even expecting a 0 marks became my best scored mod
haha!
not high but the best of the 3 la.
oh man.
really
ytd was the best day in my life man
haha!
but...
in a way oso got a lil disappointment ba
=)))
not bout my results thou
juz find tat some things really can't force one
haha!
eh eh
dun get it wrong.
not talking bout those relationship thingy here
juz feel tat those close friends tat u will be with
there are really some chemistry tat can make u click with each other
and tat's y u became friends
some ppl
not matter how much u attempted
it juz doesn't feel rite
dun click
prolly coz iz done too awkwardly?
too forceful?
haha!
i duno
prolly smth went wrong somewhere
prolly the person isn't even interested to befriend u
prolly the person is juz pure quiet
prolly the person, like me, duno how to hold a convo
prolly iz juz the lack of chemistry
haha!
sometimes i'll think
did i make the wrong move in the first place to even start talking to the person?
coz prolly the person isn't even interested to hav u in their life
but u force urself in
and now they hav to suffer coz of u
suffer like say....
prolly they dun really wana talk to u but no choice coz u made the move of talking to them
in the end they are forced to talk to u
smth like tat one
do u think the person will think like tis?
or prolly...
they can't be even bothered to think of tis kinda small matter even for tat split sec coz iz simply a waste of time?
haha
wat do u think?
if someone juz enter ur life forcefully, how will u feel?
friends
how come they seem so hard to make now
where did all my friends come from?
how did i make them?
since when did i start rejecting ppl coming into my life
or is there even someone who attempted to come into my life?
since when did i stop attempting to break into ppl's life?
or was it always ppl breaking into my life?
been roaming around fb these days
haven been visiting for a super long time
looked at photos of friends
past and present
they all seem happily living their life
wat bout me?
am i happy?
i suppose i am ba
haha!
i duno
i'm a bit worried thou
ppl seems to be leaving my life
but new one nv come
my close friends hav their other closer friends
mostly ppl whom they see much more often than me
while i seem to hav only them
those whom i see almost each and everyday,
they aren't even considered close
y?
izit coz i've locked up my heart?
refusing ppl to enter and at the same time, did not attempt to enter theirs?
haha
how come i suddenly feel so lousy
even my cousins
they all seemed close
but y am i not in the pic?
it feels so hard to even get close to them now when they're suppose to be closest to me
they're my relatives
haiz
guess there's really some gain and loss ba
i gain some i lose some
but now.
i only feel tat i'm losing
haha!
oh well
at least i still hav u all.
^^
didn't they all say?
having few close gd friends is better than having loads of.... friends?
haha!
lets all jia you ba!!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDD
~i entered without permission. are you ok with it?~
Monday, July 11, 2011
Happy Birthday to me!!
haha!
tis day mark my 23rd bday.
oh man...
i'm getting older!
haiz
anyway.
thanks everyone who gave me ur bday wishes!
haha!
like as if anyone will see tis
somehow i felt kinda bless today
having ppl whom i'm close with to wish me
and even ppl whom i didn't expect wished me happy bday too!
haha!
thou iz kinda boring staying at home
but i'm still blessed
haha!
thank you everyone for making me feel blessed
^^
thou prezzies are getting lesser and lesser
but prolly when u grow older
u no longer mind the prezzies tat u receive
iz more to the time u get to spend with ur family and friends
haha!
(thou of coz having some slight surprise will be nice =P)
since last night till now
i thot i'll juz receive a few msg from some of my close friends and tats it
but yeah
i got more!
haha!
tat's y i say
i'm blessed.
=DDD
esp tis yr
kinda feel tat my family got closer
i not only got my yrly wishes from my pa & ma
even my 2 bro sent me msges for it
hahaha!
esp the younger one
early in the morn b4 going to sch he sent me a msg to greet me happy bday when i'll be seeing him later
hahaha!
oh man
i really feel sooo soo blessed
wat more can i ask for
=DDDDDDD
really many thanks to everyone
love u all loads loads loads!!!
~iz u who made my day~
~prolly i should stop ranting tat i dun hav a bf, be contented with wat i hav and make plans for my old maid future. haha!~
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
2 more days and tat's it
pray hard what i studied did get in k?
so worried ar
haiz
feel as if my 2 mths studying is a waste
really duno wat did i studied
haiz
and ya
iz been 2 mths since i really went out to play le
T-T
thou i do go out sometimes for supper or for a run
but iz been like sooooo long since i go out juz to shop or play
AHHHH!!!!
i think i'm going mad here le
haha
after my exams i'm gonna play play play!!!!
thou i duno wat's there for me to play de
dun really shop oso
*faint*
still...
i can't wait for exams to be over~~~~!!
and can't wait to go back to work too!
haha!
think i'm one of the few tat likes to work ba
comparing work to studying
i rather work
lol
tis time feels so much diff from last yr
last yr i could get use to the tempo of studying
but tis yr really
cmi
juz simply can't wait to get out of tis kinda life
but first hav to pass my mods.
haiz
fine~~
back to studying
~~when will tis be over~~
